When I look at her,

I don’t see skin and bones;

I see blurred lines and grey flecks

trying to escape.

I see a girl with no idea what the terms

‘right’ and ‘wrong’ entail;

and she certainly doesn’t what to find out

anytime soon.

I see a girl with boundless ideas

swirling around her head,

wanting desperately to be seen.

They play hide-and-seek

inside her mind-

hiding in the spirts of moments

when she needs them;

and popping out during inconveniences.

She is my girl;

grey flecks and all.

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In a poem, there was a line saying ‘grey flecks and blurred lines’ and it really stuck with me. I loved the idea of someone seeing a person’s inner self before they see the person’s appearance so I just went with that. I saw the grey flecks and blurred lines as a mental disorder that the girl was fighting with. I tried to show small symptoms in disorders like ADHD and depression and slight autism. I don’t want to romanticize mental disorders but instead show that they are part of people and to try to personify them. By personifying them, they seem more real and there than they usually are portrayed.

I usually try to use repetition in my pieces but found that I couldn’t do it this time. I just wanted to personify them instead as I have done in my earlier pieces like My Childhood Friend.

I want to show the more passive part of mental disorders and how they can be more of a small pain for different people.

My favorite part was:

She is my girl;

grey flecks and all.

Because I wanted to show that people with mental disorders can be loved as well.  And that the mental disorders are not a burden for the partners. It is more of a learning experience for them and that the ‘grey flecks’ can be as loved as the rest of the person.

This was a treat to write and I would love to explore this idea more in future pieces.

I need to meet the word count so I will say that one of my future goals for future pieces are to write longer poems with longer stories and plots!