I could flatten my chest, bruise my already broken ribcage, to mimic a man. I could put on clothes that wear me, an XL t-shirt with a 2XL hoodie, for a chance of androgyny. I could pretend for the day, people see me the way I see myself- undefinable. Because I know they won’t look…
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WARNING! This piece deals with heavy topics such as depression and suicide. One in five. Today, one in five will wonder if being alive was worth the cost of another day. I knew someone like that- his name was Christian. His life was doctor’s visits and pill bottles. His uphills were mountains, and his downhills…
My Golden Boy (April Free Choice)
You are a golden boy. Gold twinkles in your hair. And yet, your eyes flow only shades of blue. Each darker and heavier than the last. Your heart no longer radiates love. But instead, a dim light of apathy. A gold that was once warm and bright is now crushed beneath your feet. …
Childhood Friend
Depression. She had wrapped her arms around me back in the sixth grade. At first, acting like a friend that I was able to share my insecurities with and have the occasional sleepover where neither of us ever got a wink of sleep. But over time, her hugs got longer and more painful- her nails…